Quarantine 2020 (much needed) Update

Grand Rising Beautiful Beings,

it’s ya gurl, back again… literally after being gone from the site for about 3 whole months. it’s a little embarrassing now to come back and try to explain why I have been absent from my own platform that I invest in month after month… but i’m here! ready and prepared to continue doing my best and start somewhere. to be transparent, i was beginning to doubt that this even meant anything; questioning whether or not if this even helps anyone at all. it challenges me to discover more of myself and encourages me to Trust in myself, my worth and my work. no matter what the fears and doubts try to tell me, at the end of the day, i do believe in Me. consistency allows me to believe in myself, more. therefore, i will require it from myself, for myself. this is a huge way where i can hold myself accountable. i believe wholeheartedly that if i choose to invest the time and energy to give back to it, cherish it and nurture it, i will receive the same thing back in return. i know i’m meant to share my stories and use my voice. hiding and keeping my mouth shut isn’t doing me any good, anyway. 

Inner Releasing & Reflecting —

i guess it took 3 months stepping away for me to realize it, and to realize myself. i’m re-expressing my full commitment into myself and my dreams and it feels amazing. i’m trying my best to continue to lean into that vibration instead of attaching to all the pain and suffering i am seeing all around me. it hurts. i’m truly affected by it because i have unconsciously made the agreement in my head that somehow, someway i will have to be subjected to pain and suffering for my whole life. now, at 25 years old, i don’t feel pain and suffering like i thought i would. the pain and suffering i have felt was only for my good; it’s been only for my elevation… “growing pains” if u want to call them. it hasn’t been anything like i thought it would be when i was young, as i attached myself to those beliefs. this healing work for the past 3 months has been a battle within myself; how to fight in the revolution while not taking on any guilt for actually feeling Inner Peace. i feel the most peaceful i have ever felt in my Life, despite what chaos forms externally. a beautiful oxymoron. and it’s all meant for a Purpose. 

Purpose Driven & Worthy — 

we’re meant to discover the place where Inner Peace resides. it’s our birthright to accept it fully. no doubt. no shame. no guilt. just full Gratitude and Appreciation for finding this space and living in it no matter where we go. not forgetting where we came from, but taking the time to enjoy it and honor the journey, as well as, creating opportunities for others to discover theirs too. using the privilege of inner security, to help others realize and acquire their individual and personal Freedoms. that is my true Purpose here on this planet and on this plane. i know i will meet others with similar purposes and its beautiful to see every shade, every facet of Human Life and the complexities we all possess. it’s so fucking beautiful to see Us all in Unity. the way we’re meant to Be. despite the horrible circumstances that have attracted this Unity, i’m trying my best to focus on the positives for Mental and Emotional Health’s sake. 

This Revolution shall Be Televised — 

this Quarantine has allowed me to get in touch with this Inner Peace; know it, recognize it, live it and breathe it. so that when I cross the borders of Comfortability, i will know exactly where to turn. i can sharpen my tools and prepare myself for any battle if necessary. Expansion is the key. as we’ve released the old paradigms, we step into the new Frequency; a High Vibration. we are to study this state of Being so that we may pass it down to the next generations. we already see how majestically our youthful, powerful generation has bloomed and stood up and fought for Change; sacrificing everything for Change. it’s amazing to see. i am in Awe of how United we are, all across the country, letting go of the beliefs and systems that no longer serve the collective good. i’m beyond proud of Us and everything we’re doing. This revolution, the new revolution, will indeed be televised. 

Rebirthing & A Call into the Wild — 

  i’ve been called and encouraged to completely transform; personally and professionally. soulfuLight Artistry LA is definitely not going anywhere; she was just a first step to a much bigger dream. i will still provide portrait photography sessions and illustrations with that brand (continue to follow us on social media! @soulfulight.la) but i will also be providing more lifestyle centered content, specifically surrounding holistic balanced health and spirituality. so far we’ve been experimenting with some cannabis infusions and physical fitness videos. i have so many ideas spewing out of my head, it’s not even funny, but it’s so exciting to finally hit the gold mine of inspiration and motivation when it comes to a purpose bigger than myself and my immediate surroundings. as i’m re-committing to myself, i’m recommitting to Impacting the world around me by spreading helpful resources and information to improve the quality of our lives, with roots stemming from within and sprouting out of ourselves into the physical and metaphysical realms. i’m really hype to continue releasing content and share everything i’ve learned so far from Quarantine. it’s been a blessing to be in a position like mine. these days are never taken for granted. it feels like it’s been too long since i’ve been away from the site but also perfect timing for me to demonstrate not quitting showing up for myself, no matter how hard it gets, no matter how far i’ve strayed away; there’s still plenty of time and much possibility for Integration. that being said, welcome to the new site, soulfulayuh.com where i’ll be sharing many activities, involvements and business and personal associations. i feel like there’s soooo much i want to share inside and outside of soulfuLight Artistry, i thought it made sense to just have an external platform that has some type of permanence and oneness where i can assure the public will be able to access this information with ease. i trust u will all enjoy what will be shared, and i trust soulfuLight Artistry will develop into a fascinating community where we can all feel more connected, secure and safe within ourselves and throughout the collective. 

check out my most recent YouTube video, recorded last week in the midst of the police brutality crises and protesting. my emotions led me to release this rant making my position clear as a business owner and African American woman, daughter, sister, cousin, and friend. another way of expressing my committment, and welcoming personal accountabiliy, from myself, as well as, from others.

Hi! My name is Tai'Leah Paige aka soulfuLayuh, founder and CEO of soulfuLight Artistry LA. We stand in full solidarity with Black Lives Matter, with BIPOC, LGBTQIA+, & other non-POC allies. We have a 0 tolerance for racism, prejudice, systematic oppression and colorism or privilege.

i promise it won’t be another 3 months until i’m back sharing content. i still have many many things to share with u all and it’s the time to hustle & get it all out for the greater good. i love u all and i trust u all will enjoy ur weekend. stay safe please and take care; nurture thy selves, Friends <3

xoxox soulfulayuh