Full Moon in Aries update ~ Life Coaching with Auric ©
wassuppp guysszzz. it’s meeeee. this week has been emotional hell, to say the least. so i had to write about it. This post doesn’t include photos or any media and I’m sad, but the words are pretty good too, *winks
Last weekend Aries’ Full Moon shined brightly in the sky. Which means, we’re going back to the basics: Healing 101 with Aries, the first Zodiac, as our teacher. Full Moons tend to cause intense emotions and slight instability, at least for my case. And there was plentyyyyyy of unstable, insecure behavior going on: overthinking which led to worry & doubt, anxiety… which leads to stress, which leads to SELF-DESTRUCTION. Ughhhhh, I was completely and utterly frustrated! :’( My inner child threw tantrums about literally everything; feeling so lost, alone and unseen. I began to doubt myself & the Universe, questioning whether or not something was really wrong with me. Ending counseling with my life coach, Michelle, just a few days prior gave me so much encouragement to finally flap my wings and fly again; we’ve been transforming for 8 whole months and I’m still struggling and suffering with myself. I’m still not happy?! It seemed like nothing was working out for me. At least, that’s what my beliefs were STILL telling me.
I spent all of Monday and Tuesday healing. I had so much work to do; only because I’m used to suppressing my emotions & forcing myself to keep going through all the trials and tribulations, giving myself the most minimal amount of Self-Care, Compassion & Gentleness that I actually need. Through my healing practices, mainly through journaling & meditation, I uncover my feelings; thoughts and beliefs come to the surface. So many past beliefs came up that no longer align with who I am in the Present. Instead of getting angry and frustrated with myself, I chose to unpack the emotions and the behaviors; Think about where they came from and release the pattern or the habit. I continuously affirm: ‘I release the need to focus on what I lack.’ ‘I release the need to doubt myself & the Universe.’ ‘I release the need to judge myself or others.’ After, I invite what I would like to feel instead: ‘Instead, I choose to focus on all that I have.’ ‘Instead, I choose to Trust in myself & in the Universe.’ ‘Instead, I choose to see everyone as they truly are.’ That one practice, has been the one with the greatest impact on my individual elevation (besides Meditation). It came from a book called, You Can Heal Your Life by Lousie Hay. Michelle gifted me the e-book early on in our coaching. & I am so grateful for that extension of Love and for all of Michelle’s support throughout our coaching journey together. Without Michelle, I wouldn’t be the woman I am today, in this short amount of time. With her knowledge & expertise, I was able to make the greatest transformation my Self has ever seen.
Mental health and overall wellbeing are extremely important priorities, other than Spirituality. Traumas experienced in adolescence and adulthood encourage awareness of the importance of Self-Health, Self-Healing and Personal Development; placing us in a position to learn more about Self, as well as, the rest of Humanity. During times of adversity, you rarely understand the purpose until you’ve climbed the Mountain. My mountains have caused me to become more Self-Aware and more Self-Accountable for my actions and behaviors. 2017 was the beginning of my self-healing/spiritual journey: I read a ton books, articles, blogs and listened to podcasts and audiobooks that would help me heal the wounds that I’ve carried with me all throughout my childhood and into adulthood. In mid 2018, I finally decided it was a good idea for me to seek extra support in this area from a professional. I placed an intention on my heart to connect with someone who would truly help me transform like I never have before on my own. February 2019, I started coaching with Michelle after finding her on Twitter by happenstance & sending her a DM response to a tweet she posted about offering help with spirituality/business etc. We had a consultation chat about what I was experiencing in my current life and what I wished to experience in my reality; my goals were to heal my wounds, quit my job to pursue entrepreneurship and prepare for romantic partnership. Rarely, do I meet someone who can listen to every single word that I’m saying and make sense of it in one to two sentences and tell me straight up what I should do next. This helped me tremendously; because of my habit of overthinking and desire for perfection, I rarely step out and do things without a detailed plan to back me up. Michelle saw my self-sabotage and gave me direct guidance on how I was to heal while continuously elevating.
Before I began speaking with Michelle, I spoke with another female professional doctor whom also was supporting my sister at the time. Upon our first discussion, I recognized that there was a huge disconnect when it came to discussing spirituality; i knew i had to find someone who was more specialized in that area; someone who can relate to what I am experiencing. Michelle was divinely orchestrated to reach my vibration & she was in perfect alignment of what exactly I needed, at the time I needed her the most. The Universe always knows what it’s doing. I carry her teachings with me as I had taken notes on our every phone call & use them for reference to refocus my priorities in the beginning of every month. I’ll never forget how impactful our in-person conversations were & the endless epiphanies that I had within every single conversation. Michelle, not only helped me with my personal development and career in business, she helped me empower myself & shift my vibration just by asking me questions and getting my mind quiet. She promotes various self-love practices and spiritual wellbeing practices that I continue to use as resources to support myself along the journey. Throughout my life, I haven’t been exposed to very many women who are self-empowered and ooze self-love and self-validation. Meeting Michelle changed all of that for me; Once I was able to begin actively practicing loving Self and nurturing my inner child, I then aligned with more groups of Divine Empowered Feminines who sought their dreams & goals while helping other women do the same.
It took me a while to be able to get to the point of admittance and acceptance that I needed help & I needed support with my life journey. My Virgo tendencies usually lead me down a path of doing everything on my own strength and it took a different type of strength to admit to myself that I should get seek extra support from a specialized professional. These are the best words to describe the gratitude that I have for all of the energy, effort and support Michelle has devoted to me for my elevation and transformation. At first, I was so fearful and skeptical about whether or not I needed it and the magnitude of how painful this transformation may be. 8 months later, I definitely have made a complete transformation into a Divine Feminine being. Although, this growth was slightly uncomfortable and triggering at times for my inner child, I’m blessed to have grown and elevated in this way. This journey gets easier and easier the stronger we get and the higher we elevate and sometimes a little extra push is all we need to become our Highest versions. If you’ve been contemplating asking for support from a friend whom shares mutual respect & honesty, or a specialized professional, this is your confirmation.
As for me, I am continuing to purge & release all these emotions as they pass. I’m choosing to take the time for self-care that I actually need. Let go of self-judgment about how this looks for me & how long this takes me. I am in full gratitude that I am able to take this challenge, climb another mountain so that I may become stronger, wiser & more resilient. I choose to keep going, whilst holding onto the little bit of faith my Mind is telling me I have. I choose to count my wins & reflect on what I have accomplished to shift my Perception & therefore, increase my Vibration. This is an opportunity for Elevation & of course, I am accepting. Fully Surrendered.
Happy Sundeyyyy friends.
soulfuLayuh <3
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Guidance Coaching: Michelle with The Auric Life
Reads: ‘You Can Heal Your Life’ by Louise Hay
(idk if i’m supposed to do this but I shared a copy of the book <3 from my Drive, enjoy)